TODAY'S GIFT - SEPTEMBER 2014
 

The faith I have is that my God is always there and that my needs are on the way. Like yesterday, going and cashing a forgotten Lotto 649 ticket, something I bought on a whim, I seldom buy, and won $10. enough to buy what I wanted and had enough left over for what I needed to purchase at another store.

They say, "You never win if you don't buy." LOL. They don't consider how much it costs to buy before you win. A dear soul in my building will say, "I want $4. or $25." with no words about how much of her pension she spent buying them. I had to learn the hard way, my poison was Nevada Tickets. For a while I controlled how much I spent, a whole $3. a day, but that was still using, and it was taking over my thinking. Now if I get the thought, I will buy. My sponsor said, "Never spend more than you can afford to lose."

The light went on for me, it took a while because I didn't think I was doing myself or others wrong. In the long run it did, but the biggest thing was setting a bad example.

Be on the same chord, harmonize, and come from the same place.

My preoccupation with my son and his unwillingness to get help from a doctor or unwilling to go back to counselling. Everything is so what and I don't care and it is hard to be around the energy and not take it on. I think his fear is that he is fearful of what they will find if they examine him. Not very easy to accept, but it is his choice.

Love the question today. My outlook today is change. I turned on the TV before I started posting, normally I listen to music and don't watch the morning shows. I turned to the morning show and JLo was on and she had on a top with butterflies that sparkled and fluttered. Hoping to get good news from the specialist today.

Like the part about giving ourselves to feel lonely. It is a normal feeling. I can always reach out to others, pick up the phone, go to a meeting, go to a volunteer place, a community center, a senior citizen center, and I find it is a good time to just sit and have a little talk with my God.

There is always so much, just starting a new day is enough. If I wasn't clean and sober, there would be no day.

Grateful for my sense of humour. My first thought was, "I am thankful for commercials." If there were no commercials, I wouldn't get anything posted. I am watching tributes to Joan Rivers. The same happens when I am watching tennis.

I never asked Him to leave.

I like to call it reborn of the spirit. I like to think of it as each time I have a new awareness and go through a new spiritual experience in today. All I have to do is to be open to them.

The only thing I built was a sand castle and a snow fort. But I did build upon an idea and a concept, brought others into the idea and went on from there. I was very good at getting the idea, involving others, but wasn't good for being there for the long haul, I would delegate, and then move onto new ideas and concepts. Always looking for that new thing, to help start something a new, most times a leader, seldom a follower, but for the most part a team player.

My goal today is to go back to bed, put my ear plugs in to block out the noise of the guy taking out my tub, so I can run away from home for my 1 p.m. appointment.

By giviing a smile, saying "Hello, a nice day we are having, isn't it?" or "Good Morning," or "Good Afternoon," or, "Isn't it nice when the sun shines?"

My thought was pick up the phone, or just maybe, don't pick up the phone and give her some space. :)

(Gosh only knows how I missed posting this or if I posted it somewhere else, this is what these head aches have been doing to me. My headaches and memory have been doing some weird things.)

What a lovely quote. I am delighted about this moment, because my headache has eased, I cooked dinner even though I only ate half of what was on my plate. I am listening to some easy listening music while I post.

For me, it is honoring someone with only religious views, not willing to extend their view to spiritual things outside of their religious beliefs. I started their, so I know where they are coming from and can identify with them.

I have three goals today. 1) stay out of the hospital. 2) do some laundry. 3) finish my book.

For me in today, they don't have to be earth shattering. I had to learn to lower my expectation so they were attainable. This was especially true, as the body got weaker and the mind stayed stronger and willing.

This is not computing, I had to learn that we are all individuals and unique in our own way. I have two sisters, and we are all very different. It isn't a bad thing, it just is. Before it gave me low-self esteem, but it was about me learning to accept who I was, and working the program and changing and becoming the person, my God would have me be. That person is still not the same as my sisters.