No Decision
 

It's hard to make the decision to do something about a drinking and drugging problem. We keep pretending it isn't real or wishing it would just go away. I wanted my life to be one big party that would never end. It's not, and there comes a time when we have to make the decision. It is a life or death decision that we're making even though I didn't think it was. I was hoping I could put off making the decision indefinitely. I decided that I wouldn't make a decision. This would allow for things to remain as they were. I was told that this was a bluffing of oneself. That no decision was a decision. That I was choosing to do nothing about my problem, and therefore that was my decision to do nothing. Decide carefully because we get what comes with our decision, and the results that follow. We get no decision there.