O is for Out. I am grateful for the people who went back out and carried a message to me. They did my research, and I didn`t have to go back out myself, to find it is no better out there.
For me to go back out is to die. Doesn`t matter that I am 71 years old, I am not ready to die. I want to live, in order to that, I need to stay clean and sober.