Congratulations on 20 days. It works, one day at a time. It might not be OUR timeline, but when you stay clean and sober, it happens. Our Higher Power has plans for us. I believe He chooses us because we have a message to give, don't know what or when, but it gave me purpose and a reason for living.
Prayers that it all comes together for you, according to your God's Will for your life.