[MajestyJo]

Faith does more for me than fear every did. Yesterday, I looked at the meditations and my mind was blank, no words were there. I couldn't think through my pain, so closed down, went to my God in prayer, and went to bed. Pain woke me up twice, but I just went back to bed, to allow my body to adjust and heal from my treatment yesterday.

I was reminded so many times I do, then forget to rest and allow the doing to do what it needs to do. I need to accept with faith, know that God's Will will be done, and I don't always have to be doing to make it happen.

How can I have faith if I can't be honest, willing to surrender to God's word and my recovery program, and willing to accept what is in the moment, know that it is subject to change. I realized that I wasn't trusting the spiritual healing and wanted that extra fix, instead of letting it take it's course. Recovery is a process. My daily connection to my God must be based on faith, not fear.