So many times we look at what we don't have, rather than looking at what we do have. When I look at where my addiction took me, one step off the streets, anything that I received was a blessing. Many times over the years, I realized that I had a lot of 'stuff' around me that wasn't that important. I either gave or let go of it, because it took up too much space in my life. I even went without TV for 2 years, because it was taking up too much of my life. I was bound and determined to build my own library and joined a club, only to find I had book I hadn't read and they were keeping me from doing service and things I needed to do for my program. Always felt, if I can feed one, I can feed two. I had to give myself permission to sit down to what I called a company meal. A meal of pork chops and apple sauce, sweet potatoes, creamed cheese sauce on cauliflower, was too good to it and have it all by myself, it was meant to be shared.
I went from a room at the YWCA, to a bachelor, and then to a one bedroom apartment. All I had was a small square table and a tri-light, along with two green garbage bags of stuff, to show for 49 years of living. After that, anything I had was bonus, especially my computer.
