A temper will get us into trouble and pride will keep us there.
I can't save my face and my butt at the same time.
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How many times, I was going to get back, 'fix' you, I'll get even with you for that one, and hang on to a resentment, and allow my pride to not give in, not willing to surrender, and the next thing I know, everything is blown out of proportion and no one wants to give in.
How many times I got angry, it is all his (her) fault, they are the ones with the problem and the disease, forgetting it is a family disease, and what my A has, I do too. It isn't always about them, it is about me and my own defects of character. I am not lily white and without faults of my own. As I shared with a friend last night, it is often the pot calling the kettle black. We don't realize that what we see in others, is a reflection from something within ourselves.
Not only not being able to save face or preventing ourselves from falling on our butt, often it is taking one foot out to put the other one in. We can't take the words back, we can't cover them up, and we compound interest by adding to the problem by opening our mouths again.
I use to tell my ex-husband, you took your foot out of your mouth and put the other one in. My tongue was a big weapon. I realized in recovery, that I would tear strips off someone, tear them apart and didn't bother putting them back together when I was done.
I had to clean up my mouth, my actions, as well as my body, mind, and spirit.
