False pride for me is this unhealthy and destructive part of self will running riot. It is what keeps telling me that I can handle my drinking, that I don't need help, and that I can still function. It keeps me from admitting that I am powerless over alcohol, and is the ultimate mirage which in its hideous form, prevents me from getting sober.
False pride is one thinking that I'm the cat's meow when there isn't even a purr. It is me buying drinks for everyone on payday, and being broke the next morning. Its thinking that my alcoholism is not detrimental to my job, my relationships, and my soul, when in reality nothing could be further from the truth.
One of the places that it is revealed in my sobriety is through a fourth step inventory.
vainglory... that we may enjoy... 12 &12 Step Four page 44
We have drunk for vainglory--that we might the more enjoy foolish dreams of pomp and power.
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