J is for Journal. It was important for me to journal and catalogue all my feelings, thoughts, and emotions, especially in early recovery. I had stuffed them for so long, I wasn't able to identify them and put a label on them. Many time I thought it was anger, and under that anger was rejection, abandonment, self-justification and the feelings were not always toward others, but toward myself and my understanding of my God.
Recently, I have been so bogged down with negative things, most of it being health issues, I wasn't feeling much joy. I was carrying around a junk load of stuff that wasn't mine to take on and my spirit was feeling heavy and sad instead of joyous and free.
