Welcome Ev, we do this one day at a time. Thank you for sharing, hope you make it back to share more with us.
There is a lot of recovery material here, check out "Other Addctions" which can often take us back to our drug of choice. My drug of choice was 'more' and yet there always seemed to be something new or something that haddened crossed my path and I told myself that I just HAD to try it. I had no defense against that thought until I came to recovery and had the spiritual strength to say "No," I don't want to go there, I know where it leads. Just for today I choose not to use. I know it isn't the substance, I know the problem is me.
That was how it was for me. The program worked when I worked for the program.
