Welcome Deker, personally, I was in denial about being an alcoholic, although I knew I was an addict. I went too AA for my denial. Going back to where I came from was not an option. I was introduced to AA when I went into rehab, although I had been to a meeting before, and was in total denial. It would have been good for my dad and my ex-husband, but they were no longer in my life, so I didn't need it. Wrong! I needed AA and Al-Anon. I am also an adult child of an alcoholic and have an eating disorder. The 12 Steps work in my life and in today I know I am an alcoholic. It was the
thinking behind the drinking that got me in trouble.
I did what they suggested. I got a sponsor, a home group, got active in my group, and went to other meetings. They suggested 90 meetings in 90 days. I was no longer employable, so me alone with me was not good, so I went to 2 meetings a day and 3 if I could get a ride. I found people doing what I couldn't do for 8 years. I made a decision that alcohol and men were the problems in my life. I could stop, but couldn't stay stopped. When I went to the rooms of recovery, I saw people with days, months, even years clean and sober. AA worked for me, inspite of myself. I had to get out of the way and allow the program to work. If you work for it, it will work for you. It is not a quit fix. It is a process and is done one day at a time. Alcoholism is a disease. An obsession of the mind and an allergy of the body. We don't metabolize alcohol like ordinary people do.
There is a lot of recovery material here. You can't beat a face to face meeting. Find a sponsor, someone who has what you want. Someone you can relate to and feel comfortable sharing with. You are not alone. Keep coming, so you don't have to come back.
