Saw this cartoon. How often we lie to ourselves and camouflage it as truth. We think we are fooling others, but the person we fool is ourselves. We try to hide our disease, our short comings, and dishonesty, when in fact everyone one knows and we are the last to admit our own deceit.
The sad thing is that the world is made up of it, and it is a way of life. My boss would stand beside me and tell me to tell the party on the other end of the phone line to say, "He had to go to London." It really bothered me because I was brought up to not lie. I felt as though the person could see through the telephone and tell by my voice that I was lying to him. I would tell someone that I had issued them a cheque, which I had done. At first, I said it with truth and conviction until the day I saw those same cheques in my bosses' briefcase unmailed. I lived a life of lies while I worked for that man and it really bothered me, and I ended up using tranquilizers, to deal with the stress of the job, I tried to do the work of 3 people, the more I did, the more was expected of me. I didn't know how to say "No!" and set boundaries. I had a son to raise. I had a job I liked. I also liked being Ms. Indispensable and Ms. Perfection but as my addiction progressed, my work efficiency decreased. My boss use to say, "I hate it when you are right." It got so I wanted to prove him wrong. He had two stores when I started working for him and had five when I left. Major ego strokes, and when he went bankrupt, it was a time of I told you so until I came into recovery and looked at myself and looked at my part and my actions and saw my own disease.
