Welcome, Melissa. I am so glad that you found us. We are here to support and encourage you.
For me, I found that I could not control my drinking. Once I took the first drink it was all bets are off. I was a blackout drinker and would wind up doing and saying things I didn't remember.
I could go periods of time without taking a drink but once I put the glass to my mouth it was over. I never was a social drinker......I was a drunk. I am so grateful that I was introduced to AA. I have been given the tools to get through any situation without needing or wanting a drink.
I have been clean and sober since August 21, 2007. I wish you nothing but the best and am glad that you are here