[honeydumplin]

Here is a brief inventory. The fourth step in the book Alcoholics Anonymous
can be a confusing format for a very confused drunk like myself.
The work sheets, and good sponsorship really helped in simplifying my first inventory.
I wanted to share some of it with you.
For me, what the fourth step did was to put plainly in black and white my participation in the harm itself,
and stop justifying the cycle of blame that I kept placing on others.
It starts to reveal a level of responsibility, by placing me directly in the harm.
Thanks for letting me share it.

Harms Other Than Sexual

Who did I hurt?
What did I do?
Affects My:
What Feelings Did I Create In Others? Done Instead?
Where had I been:

Me. 7th Grade
Acted like a spoiled brat
social instinct
anger/behaved
inconsiderate of others

Foreigner
Disrespected his country
security
bitterness/honored tradition
selfish inconsiderate

Ms. High School Teacher
Told people she shot me the bird ( a lie )
security
anger suspicion/shut-up
self seeking and frightened/ inconsiderate

Little boy
Served him alcohol to drink by accident
social
fear and suspicion/been careful. owned up.
dishonest inconsiderate

Little girl (daughter of a woman I dated)
Gave her the cold shoulder
security
suspicion bitterness/been kind
selfish inconsiderate

Mom
Begged for money
security
all the above/waited for my paycheck
self seeking and frightened/ dishonest

Dad
Drank and drugged while working for him
social
all the above/obeyed laws of the commonwealth
dishonest

Grandfather
Was never around for him at all
social/insecure
jealousy neglect/ spent more time with him
selfish

Grandmother
Took advantage of her
security
suspicion/showed respect
self seeking and frightened

Company #1
Drank too much and did drugs at work
social
jealousy/self-restraint at work. maturity.
selfish, inconsiderate, dishonest

Bill
Took his drugs from him
security
anger bitterness/left his drugs alone
self seeking and frightened, selfish, dishonest

Company #2
Stole household items
social, security
suspicion bitterness/not stole
selfish

Hotel
Stole their booze while employed
social, security
suspicion bitterness/not stole
selfish, inconsiderate

Unknown women
Looked upon them
sex
fear/self-restraint
selfish and inconsiderate

Me. 37-40.
Booze and drugs. Damage physically, mentally, and spiritually.
Security: isolated comfort zone
Sex: anti-social, insecure
Social: paranoid behavior
jealousy: completely absent
suspicion: awareness of illegal activity
bitterness: dishonest relationships
desire to retaliate: treated like an addict, because I was an addict.
selfish: thought that I was the only one I was hurting
dishonest: denial in manageability
self seeking and frightened: no choices. hopelessness.
inconsiderate: self-abuse