Would suggest going to a doctor if you have one and he is not your dealer. I had to change doctors, but more importantly, I had to get honest with my doctor. They can't help us if we aren't up front with them. I told mine, "I am a recovering addict and I don't want to be put on any mind altering drug or narcotic."
If you don't have a doctor, do you have a clinic in your area.
The best suggestion I can make is go to a meeting. Share with others, a lot of it sounds like stress and anxiety. Prayer works along with the support of other who have been where you have been. It is normal and unless your doctor diagnoses you with clinical depression, the program works without a pill. A lot depends on your medical condition, don't let others play doctor, get your body checked out. If your doctor doesn't know about addiction, get some pamphlets to give to him.
One of the craziest things I heard in recovery was a doctor preforming an appendectomy in a black out and not remembering doing the surgery.
