I find a great peace in knowing that all the time and energy I put into self destruction and humiliating myself was not entirely a waste...countless times I have found myself saying "****, I've wasted so much time! If I could go back I would have focused on school more, not drank or used." Yet my drinking and drugging has served a great purpose in shaping me into the person I am today and I hardly call that wasteful! Furthermore this "wasted" time is going to aid in connecting me with other alcoholics on multiple levels! Wow! Changing my perspective, my alcoholism has turned out to be quite a blessing....hahaha in disguise
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