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She would greet us pleasantly, and immediately she seemed to surround the chaotic atmosphere of morning strife with something of order, of efficient and quiet uniformity, so that one had the feelings that life was small and curiously ordered.
- Meridel LeSueur
Whew! Isn't it a relief to know that there are people in the world who are so present to the moment that when they enter a chaotic atmosphere they create calm? This calm is not born of control or manipulation. This calm is born of presence.
Only a person who is present to herself carries a feeling of serenity with her. As we work the Twelve-Step Program, we begin to experience this kind of serenity for ourselves.
Order that comes out of control is full of tension. Order that comes out of rigidity is full of strife. Order that comes out of serenity is peaceful.
THOUGHT FOR TODAY: May 8, 2004
This reminds me of the surprise I felt when my boyfriend said that he was first attracted to my 'presence' then by my cooking! This morning he remarked on my tolerance of the pain I have gone through since he met me. It has only been possible by being in the moment and accepting of what is, knowing that everything is subject to change. i.e. I no longer have an eye infection. I went to the doctor's for an antibiotic for swollen glands and a virus in my throat, which is probably the result of the other infection draining into my system. Life happens, one day at a time, it is better than when I was back using.
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I just went to the eye specialist for a check up last week and all was good. I need to take care, because diabetes can affect my eyes.
So many times prior to recovery, I didn't go to the doctor's to see what was wrong. I figured I wasn't worth while and what difference did it make any way. Thoughts like, "Well, I am fat, so what! No thought of eating healthy and practising healthy ways of living. Just pick up a drink and wash it away or pop a pill(s), cover it up, and pretend it isn't there.
