Alcoholism is a disease. It is a progressive disease. Your mother's/father's disease can be fixed with medication. Your disease can not. Until you can come to a spiritual decision to quit and ask for help and make the decision to quit, it has been my experience that you will continue to drink.
Have found the same thing to be true about drugs. Prescription drugs were one of my issues, and when I got to AA, I realized that they were like dried-up alcohol.
I had to pray for the willingness to quit drinking and using. I had to reach out and ask for help and my source was a counsellor at the YWCA were I was staying and she got me into treatment which lead me to AA.
No one could help me until I was ready. I went to meeting and didn't pick up, but still could not completely accept my alcoholism. I just knew I couldn't go back to where I came from, so I didn't pick up a drink one day at a time, went to meetings, did what was suggested to me, and I stayed clean and sober one day at a time.
Your disease in not curable, but it can be arrested one day at a time through the healing of the 12 Steps. It would be nice to be able to take a pill and have a quick fix, but that is another addiction.
Please take some time to read some of the posts here, you will find a great source of information. I shall pray that your Higher Power will lead and guide you to recovery.
There is more than just the readings of the day, there are some spiritual, emotional, and physical food too. The readings are important, but there is a lot of material on living in today, clean and sober.
We welcome you to the site and hope you will continue to keep coming back.