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Lady1021 · 06-26-2014, 09:35 AM

I have only been sober for eight months, so perhaps I am still in the beginning stages of growing in awareness. I discovered through the fourth step where my resentments had actually been of my own creation, which led to the realization of how I had in fact wronged those people by pushing them out of my life, sometimes in horribly hurtful ways. In daily life I find new resentments cropping up, albeit in quiet ways such as a repetition of far less selfish and biting replies spoken only in my head so they take the form of obsessive thoughts rather than hurtful comments.

My home group is solution based with a ton of sobriety (1600 years collectively at last count!) and it meets daily, which works as an inspirational way to start the day (we meet at 7:00 am) but sometimes I struggle to hold myself accountable for my own work. I think what I also may need is a more consistent connection with my higher power. I say the morning prayer daily and have also memorized a few others (the third step prayer seems helpful) but as soon as I get to work and start going, suddenly eight hours has passed and I realize I had completely forgotten the higher power even existed in the first place.

I so appreciate that this site is here and I'm grateful for your willingness to offer feedback because it's helped me to put some things in perspective. So thank you.

06-26-2014, 09:35 AM	#3
Lady1021 Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2014 Location: Seattle area Posts: 135	Thank you. I have only been sober for eight months, so perhaps I am still in the beginning stages of growing in awareness. I discovered through the fourth step where my resentments had actually been of my own creation, which led to the realization of how I had in fact wronged those people by pushing them out of my life, sometimes in horribly hurtful ways. In daily life I find new resentments cropping up, albeit in quiet ways such as a repetition of far less selfish and biting replies spoken only in my head so they take the form of obsessive thoughts rather than hurtful comments. My home group is solution based with a ton of sobriety (1600 years collectively at last count!) and it meets daily, which works as an inspirational way to start the day (we meet at 7:00 am) but sometimes I struggle to hold myself accountable for my own work. I think what I also may need is a more consistent connection with my higher power. I say the morning prayer daily and have also memorized a few others (the third step prayer seems helpful) but as soon as I get to work and start going, suddenly eight hours has passed and I realize I had completely forgotten the higher power even existed in the first place. I so appreciate that this site is here and I'm grateful for your willingness to offer feedback because it's helped me to put some things in perspective. So thank you.