C is for Clean. In order to recovery, I had to be clean of all drugs. All substances lead to the same soul sickness. I quit smoking because I felt it was what I needed to be a clean, clear channel to carry the message of recovery. I didn't want to, I could quit, until I could find that willingness within me. I had to have a spiritual solution for a disease that is spiritual in nature. Not religious, but spiritual, which changed the old attitudes and actions into a new way of life.
It didn't happen overnight, it took me 7 years in recovery to find that willingness to quit smoking and change my life into a more spiritual walk.
