Welcome Dawid, thanks for sharing. That was then, this is now in 2014. Are you willing to quit or are you going to blame someone else for your continued drinking or are you clean and sober.
I too slept on the floor, when I moved into my first apartment and only had a two burner stove, which I kept blowing the fuses and had no power in my place until I could contact my landlord. Life can be tough. I went through issues with my own group, envy, gossip, and bleeding deacons.
It is my experience that AA supports you in what you want to do, they don't do it for you. People have come through the longer I stayed sober and saw that I was willing to work the program. The people aren't AA, they have the disease of alcoholism and need to be there as much as you. It isn't about their disease and actions, it is about you and what you need to do for your own recovery.
I haven't been too many meeting outside of my city, but when I did go, the meetings were awesome, I went to AA and NA.
My life was hell, it can still be hell if it is managed by me. As it says in Step One, I am powerless of alcohol-that our lives had become unmanageable. I am powerless over people, places, and things.
People can't do it for you, it is something we have to do for ourselves. They will be there to guide you and make suggestions as a result of their own experience, strength, and hope. I hope you find a meeting that is good for you.
When you get a resentment, you are suppose to pray for those people, and wish for them, everything that you wish for yourself.
Let go, let your God, and walk in peace.
There is a lot of recovery material here, I hope you will continue to come and peruse the board to see if there is anything that can help you on your road to recovery.
