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Saturday, April 12, 2014
You are reading from the book Food for Thought
Compulsive Means My Will
When I am compulsive about something, I "have to" have it or see that it is done. I am insisting on my will, my way. I forget that the world does not revolve around me.
Going against the laws of the universe inevitably brings trouble. I cannot willfully consume everything my uncontrolled appetite demands without hurting myself and others. I cannot arrange other people's lives to suit my time schedule. I cannot adjust the world to me; I can adjust myself to what is, to reality.
Giving up my selfish, egocentric desires is probably the most difficult task I have. "He who masters himself is greater than he who conquers a city." I cannot do it alone. Through the fellowship of OA, with the help of the program, and by the grace of my Higher Power, I seek to turn from my will to His will.
Thy will be done.
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Obsession and compulsive are part of my disease, no matter what substance I use. That is why I say, ¨My drug of choice is more.¨
That is why I like the Serenity Prayer, it gives me a chance to hesitate and meditate, before I open my mouth, follow thought with action, and as I use to say to my ex, ¨You take your foot out of your mouth to put the other one in.¨ As they say, ¨It takes one to know one.¨