Welcome Susan, so glad you found us. So sorry for the late hello, I have been having problems with my computer today.
We do this one day at a time. It is a program of suggestions and I was told, I would only get out of the program, what I put into it. for me, it was do or die. Using was no longer an option. I went to meeting, got a sponsor, got phone numbers, built up a support group, found a home group where I felt comfortable sharing, got temporary sponsor, until covered all the bases. I was an alcoholic in denial, and addict whose drug of choice was more, with an eating disorder, who escaped her reality with men, work, and relationships. Just for today, I choose not to use. I am powerless over people, places, and things. I had to quit pointing the finger and had to let it begin with me.
Hope you will keep coming so you won't have to come back again.