Welcome Sandra, so glad you signed in and said hello. You took the first half of Step One by doing so. It is up to you whether you want to continue on. I made the decision that I was sick and tired of being tired and sick and wanted to do something about it.
There is a lot of recovery material material here. I suggest you give it a look see, but most importantly, I would suggest you choose a fellowship, look for a meeting close to you, either call their help line to either have someone connect with you, or get a friend to go with you.
You don't have to be clean or sober to go to your first meeting, although it helps. It is suggested 90 meetings in 90 days to find a group you feel comfortable in, to find a person you feel comfortable sharing with and ask her to be your sponsor or temporary sponsor. I knew I was an addict, but my denial was about my alcoholism, so I got my basics in AA. I didn't want to give myself an out to relapse.
Hope you will continue to come. If you have any questions, please feel free to ask.
