[MajestyJo]

Step from the Middle

Step from the middle, and what do I see?
A person who desperately wants to be free
Of expectations high; identity questioned;
Possibly die
From struggling, from fighting; at what price the cost?
To fragile heart, mind or soul to be lost.

Where do I turn to, and what can I lose?
If I stand up for me and freedom I choose.
I¨m damned if I do; yet damned if I don¨t
Hold together a family who can¨t or just won¨t
Understand all the fear, the anger and pain
Of being pulled back into the middle again.

Is there a way I could just step aside,
And leave the solutions on others to ride?
Or is it time to claim what is mine
To search deep inside me, and triumphantly find
The person once me; full of high hopes and dreams
That forever were lost in the middle, it seems.

Deep down in the depths of my heart do I see
A glimpse of a woman, courageous and free
Whose first step to freedom; as difficult may be
Is to step from the middle, and declare,
Look at me.
This is my life; I own it, why can¨t you see?
That it¨s time that I live it; and I live it for me.

- Lois Stargratt