Depression

[MajestyJo]

Depression is a big part of grief. Whenever we have a change in our life which brings about change in our daily routine, our daily living structure, and our long-time habits, we grieve over what was, what might have been, and fear what is to come.

Link to Bill W. view on depression:

What we look like on the outside isn't how we feel inside. Recovery for me was when the reflection matched. I was always trying to make the outside looked good because I felt so bad inside. I was big into earrings and make up and in today, I seldom take the time for either.

Depression is part of grieving and something that I don't take a pill for. My depression isn't a chemical imbalance. Doctor's have tried to put me on anti-depressants for my fibromyalgia and all they did for me was put weight on and then I became more depressed. I have seen many girls put on them only to go back out to get thin. Either they were not honest with their doctor or their doctor doesn't understand the disease of addiction.

Every time there is a change, a loss be it a job, a routine, a loved one, or a habit, we go through a grieving process. It isn't something to ignore and hide under a bushel. The program works on it when I apply the 12 Steps. The 12 Steps are applicable to all situations.

I can identify with a few things (no shower, no getting dressed...no leaving the house...only leaving the bed to eat or go potty), although I think the most I have gone without doing is 3 days. It is a sign for me that I am heading down and I need to turn things over to my Higher Power.

Here is a link to some quotes. The one I like the best is:

“Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts” by Penelope Sweet

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depression_women.htm