THIS TIME MUST BE DIFFERENT

[BBJohn]

Thanks Jo, as you say more effort is needed and I'm doing it.. Got myself to a meeting last night even though I was exhausted, but when would tiredness ever stop me going out to drink or try and score.
It was a good meeting, my sponsor couldn't make it but set me up to meet a guy 37 years sober who used to be his sponsor. From bitter experience I know early recovery when the pain is still very real is not such a problem for me to stay sober. I get lazy, don't talk to another person in recovery each day, drop meetings.
Tonight I'm here, will speak to my sponsor later and the guy from last night.
Back to basics, simple stuff, whatever happens today I will not drink.
I'm no longer young, can't keep doing this and I know how good life can be clean & sober.
BTW noticed you like tennis? My wife is a fanatic, so I've had to get interested, probably should talk about this in a different part of the site.