Relapse

[MajestyJo]

Thanks for sharing zackdude, thank you for sharing. Only you can make that decision, I would suggest talking it over with your sponsor and doctor. I have problems sleeping so I am on the other side of the spectrum. I do take Melatonin, but it doesn't help much and I don't take it often. I have stopped doctor's prescriptions, especially if it is an anti-depressant if I find it to be mind altering.

Did you just take it the one time? Did it make you feel like more? I was addicted to prescription medication, so if I find myself taking a pill, and sitting there waiting for that fix when I take it, there is a good possibility, I shouldn't be taking it. A lot of it is about our thinking. What did you do to get yourself into the state of not being able to stay awake? A lot of questions we have to ask ourselves. I believe that in recovery, I need to get up in the morning, live my day, and go to bed with gratitude for another day. My problem, is that my day isn't always at the same time as everyone else's.

It is the same with anything? Picking up food and stuffing ourselves when it is emotional food we need or a spiritual need, instead of a physical one. Picking up something to take ourselves out of where we are at without going within and asking help of our Higher Power. If you prayed and asked for help and that pill was offered, and it was a one time deal, I would say no. Things are put in our path. They are either for our Higher Good, or they are a temptation that we need to apply our program to. Looking outside of ourselves to make ourselves feel better. That is what I call addiction.

I was put on a steroid for my arthritis and I had to quit it. It made me feel like my head was detached from my body. Messages from my brain were not making it to the rest of my body. It is a thinking program, so if I can't think, then I have a problem. It is a living program, what decision did I make to bring me to where I am at in today?

Hope that helps. Even if it is a relapse, all you lose is your dry date. If you continue to take them, then I would give it serious thought and consult help. Thanks for reaching out, hope this helps. Better still, I hope it makes sense as I just woke up. I have to go to see my doctor in a few hours and I am going to talk to him about my medication. I have stopped two meds that I have been given. A healthy mind makes for a healthy body.