schell's journey for today

[schell81208]

Hi to all! My computer went all goofy with something doing something to my programs....i tried to work through it , then got frustrated and shut everything down! I left it alone for two days....maybe it needed a long nap...anyway things seem to be better in the past few days ...Thanks for the hellos and Capt definitely keep contact from Liberia? If I remember right....I just want to share my gratitude to you all, for the fallish type day, brilliant sunshine, and that even my psychiatrist , appt yesterday said I seem to be more "together" , that there is something different than when we had our last meeting...I said I don't see it so thank you.. he actually said he thinks we can go 6 months between appts now...i told him I am no longer afraid to call him and ask for help when the mania gets out of control ...that I don't seem to be living in fear...for today I feel ok about just being me..."a new freedom and a new happiness" I don't like to compare sobrieties...but my sponsor was right that for the first two years back in the program all I spoke of was the past...my last sobriety type thing and comparing it to now....when that stopped I began to grow as the person I am sober in today...not comparing but freeing myself into what today has to offer....writing , journalling and dating and commenting in areas during my daily readings really helps me be aware of so much more!
Good to be here tonight....Peace, Schell