Working the Program

[MajestyJo]

Pages 63 and 64 in the 12 and 12. This is step 6. I asked myself at the beginning of this step..Do I want to change, to grow as a person or do I want to hang onto these things for the rest of my life, crippling my growth? Step six says" Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character." Posted by Schell

Change has been one thing that is constant in my recovery, and yet ironically, the same sponsor through out my recovery hasn't happened. I have been fired, I have been taken back on, at my request. I have had an AA, NA, and Al-Anon sponsor, I have had an AA, and an AA co-Sponsor, a Native American woman I was working with at the time, different combinations, my second Al-Anon sponsor passed away on Monday. My 1st Al-Anon sponsor and I were co-sponsoring each other when she passed away. When I asked the sponsor who passed away to go through the Blue Prints to Progress by Al-Anon and she dropped me as a sponsor. She said she had nothing to give me. I had trouble understanding it. We had about the same time in the fellowship, we had both come from abusive marriages and we both had sons who were addicts. She told me that every time I shared at a meeting, her mouth was opened in awe with what I shared, and I couldn't understand this because we both had about the same amount of time in the program. I wish we could have shared more, she passed away about two years ago.