Today's Thought - February

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While doing my fourth step, I placed my house, wife, and Christmas as a deep resentment. In one particular phase of my life, we were doing financially well. We were operating two successful businesses. So I built a nice home on 20 acres for the family. After nine long months, I finished the home. Upon completion, I was faced with infidelity and the death of our daughter on Dec. 26. Although it has been 14 years since that time, I still find it difficult to cope with buying or building a new home, as well as reminders of infidelity and the death of a child. It took 11 more years after those events before I got sober through the AA program.

I do have peace of mind today and a joy that transcends my understanding. For both, I am grateful. However, I must admit those old ruminations come back at times that are most inconvenient...kind of like my drinking behavior at family functions or business trips.

I am improving day to day as I practice these principles, and I accept the emotions today, rather than dulling the pain with alcohol and valium. As a matter of fact, by working through these emotions, I have begun to remember the good times we shared in our family. With exercises such as this and personally working with others who still suffer, I know I am not alone and this is doable together. Left to my own devices and alone, I know I will cease to love and live. Thank God I have a choice today!

Thanks for the share!