I Was Chosen

I don't deserve to be here today
I still can't comprehend how I found my way
At times I was unable to fight
From a world of darkness to a world of light
Nevertheless, I had made it through
And I began to construct a life anew
Somehow a second chance I received
A new outlook upon life I now perceived

I have no clue why someone chose me
'cause I wasn't going to grow up to be
The savior to bring the world to peace
Leave that to one who knows what to do at least
I also won't cure any disease
I don't know how to put my stomach at ease
So someone, why me, may I question?
Why am I, an awful mess, your selection?

One of three places I should have been
For all of the misery I have given
Either locked up in a cold, damp cell
And the inmates, I would get to know quite well
Or have padded walls surrounding me
Then one of the crazy people I would be
Or I could make a major blunder
Place three for me should have been six feet under

The torture I've caused you must not know;
The destruction I caused many years ago
For their grief I am to blame
Through being a villain I had earned my fame
And I know their lives can never be
Restored to sanity, all because of me
So why I was chosen I don't know
Despite the agony I caused years ago

I knew in my heart I could not win;
Tried to force myself into oblivion
But then I threw out one final prayer
Sobbing to anyone who just might be there
I don't know what changed in me that day
Through that darkness I had discovered my way
Back then that wasn't of my concern
Since a whole new life I was about to earn

I found some people of my own kind
Which I thought existed just in my own mind
For the first time I wasn't alone
With these people I had found a comfort zone
Even though they were complete strangers
I was certain that they possessed no dangers
For they helped me to regain my life
To a world of new hope from a world of strife

I'm a walking miracle I keep hearing
Despair around me keeps on clearing
Scars of yesterday are history
While tomorrow's life remains a mystery
Now I can see the light in my heart
Even when my hands can't pull the darkness apart
The sun finally begins to shine
And this heavenly world can now be all mine

Someone out there wanted to save me
Restore my hectic life back to sanity
They must have seen something inside me
That something, must have established me worthy
I haven't found that divine force yet
Whatever it is, I'm forever in debt
'cause it somehow chose me to survive
Although I shouldn't be, I am still alive

Peace Amidst the Storm
I ran away tonight
I felt I couldn't endure life
Ran with all of my might
Away from my feelings and strife

I left the town I knew
Left my whole childhood behind
Through strange places I flew
Unsure of what I sought to find

At last I hit the ground
Staring up at the starry sky
A warm breeze blew around
As I let out a relieved sigh

So I layed in the grass
Serenity, I had received
Troubles I learned would pass
So I rested there and just breathed…

You Spot It, You Got It
I sat by myself in the park
And watched the children across the way
One of them made a remark,
Claimed that the different one couldn't play
Judged the child by the outside
Never thought to give her a small chance
Then the poor one sat there and cried
Watching the other ones laugh and dance

My eyes then caught sight of a brawl
Two mothers, each blaming the other
One boy caused the other to fall
When really it was the boy's brother
The boy got away with his crime
Told his mother an innocent lie
Its only a matter of time
Before taller tales slide slyly by

I now observed a young couple
Their relationship appeared over
I wondered what was the trouble
The woman had lied and moreover
The man was just after her cash
Their whole partnership was just a lie
Now the others heart they both smashed
And feared to give love a second try

It's sad what the world has become
A lack of truth, acceptance and love
And I wish something could be done
Perhaps some slight guidance from above
If only I could save the earth
Because I see what's right from what's wrong
Restore destructive lives to worth
With my ways, we can all get along

I begin to get up to leave
Chose to walk along the river home
My reflection I then perceive
But this shock I just cannot condone
I thought my views they should accept
But the whole time I refused to see
All I had seen, every defect
Those defects, I saw, were inside me

Three Days
There are three days of our interest
But over two, we shouldn't stress
Past pain comes from one
Just fear, from another
And smiles from the best

Yesterday contains our regret
Our goals that couldn't be met
Expectations crushed
Our minds on the failures
Disgrace, is all we get

Tomorrow contains all our fear
Thoughts of obstacles coming near
Worries and stressors
Projection of troubles
This dread, we hold so dear

But only today stands alone
We make our journey in this zone
Shape our hopes and dreams
Free of pain and fear
This day, is all we own

Going It Alone
I was always a success
Helping others, when they were a mess
I was always the strong one
Always doing, what couldn't be done
I was the one they turned to
Because the answers to life I knew

But they had all failed to see
Turmoil which resided in me
All the fear I had inside
Emotions I wished would just subside
These things, I don't understand
I'm by myself in a distant land

I can save humanity
Restore them all back to sanity
But I, myself, I am dead
I'm too stuck in my insane head
Please, I can't go it alone!
Someone! I can't do it on my own…

Five Keys to Unlocking the Door
I've been caught in despair
I've thrown out that final prayer
I've pounded on that door
Pure joy I wished to explore

But as much as I tried
As much as my fingers pried
I just couldn't get through
To begin a life anew

Then someone approached me
And presented me the keys
But left me on my own
To find happiness alone

"Free your heart from hatred"
Was on the first key I read
"If others lost their way
For their lack of love, you pray"

I thought this could be done
So I studied the next one
"Free your mind from your fear
From troubles coming near"

I looked at the next task
This appeared a lot to ask
To "live simply" seemed tough
I know that road will be rough

"Give out to others more,
You will find your soul will soar"
I proceeded to read
And I guess I could do that deed

I looked at the last one
Just maybe, it could be done
"To be spared from your strife
Learn to expect less from life"

With these five simple ways
I have now found better days
Life went to good from bad
Found the life I wished I had


submitted by Mandi