Eating Disorders - OA March 2014

[MajestyJo]

Sunday, March 9, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

No Ultimate "ah"

When we were overeating, we sought an ultimate experience of satisfaction from food. No matter what kind of food we ate, or how much, we never found that moment of satisfaction, that ultimate "ah." It was always just ahead, in the next bite.

Have we finally realized that the ultimate "ah" which we looked for in food does not exist? No matter what we eat, or how much, it will always elude us. Whatever we are looking for--happiness, success, peace, and fulfillment--it is not to be found in the refrigerator.

We do not promise that working the OA program will bring instant gratification or constant happiness. What we do know is that through the Twelve Steps we are given positive experiences which we did not have before OA. We are happier, more successful, more at peace, and more fulfilled than we ever were before we found this program.

By realizing that food holds no ultimate "ah," we can stop destroying ourselves by chasing a rainbow which does not exist.

May I stop searching for happiness where it is not to be found.

So true, some how we get to thinking it is our due. That 'Ah' feeling we get when our drug of choice hits bottom, is hard to forget. I had to remember, that it kept taking more and more to reach that 'Ah' feeling, and when I did find it, I couldn't stop there, I had to have more.